Wow, this summer is flying by. I cant believe its been over a month since my last posting. So much has happened since then. Lets catch up....
A couple months ago I attended a Healing Rooms International Healing Conference which was hosted by my church. The Lord opened my eyes to so much. He has revealed much to me and made Himself so real to me. I am forever changed. During that 4 day conference I went up for prayer each night. Each night the Lord turned up the heat. By the last night a young man came up to me and my husband said: "The Lord gave me a picture of you jumping on a trampoline. Does this mean anything to you?" My husband and I looked at each other and grinned as I have not been able to jog at that point let alone jump on a trampoline! We told him to continue and that yes, his vision resonated with us. He continued, "The Lord says that you will not only jump in body but that the Lord was even moving me to jumping higher in His plan for me. Higher than I even thought possible to go, God is elevating you!" My husband, Eric and I just stared at each other....oh could this really be?
That evening I received prayer and I felt pain leave my body! I went several weeks, no pain! Just 2 weeks ago I went for a leg scan. I developed in my mind that no pain must mean that God took the clot away and that I'm finally healed....do you see how quickly I forgot...I am already healed! Quickly going back to that old way of thinking rationally and you know what? Thankfully I serve an irrational God!! A few days after my scan I went to see my surgeon to go over the results.
Guess what the results were? I STILL HAVE A CLOT THE SIZE OF TEXAS IN MY LEG! My rational thinking which can resemble the world went right to natural progression. Well if my pain is gone the clot caused the pain, the clot must be gone...right? WRONG. You see, my surgeon couldn't explain why I'm not hurting anymore. He tried to come up with some cockamamie reason that I could possibly be feeling better and I stopped him. I stopped him and told him the reason I'm better! I got to tell him about the Great Physician and His healing power!
You see, the Lord showed me that He is a merciful God. I walked through depression, indifference and being a victim. When I wrapped my mind around Who Jesus really is and see His faithfulness I was able to lay down depression, indifference and being a victim. I put on the coat of VICTORY and even though I was still in pain the Lord was quick to bring comfort when I submitted and surrendered it all to Him. Our God proved Himself merciful by starting the healing manifestation with my pain. He could have healed the clot first but He chose the pain first.
The character of God includes but is not limited to merciful! I had suffered for so long, He touched my pain. Touching pain first leaving the clot in tact provided me with an opportunity to share with my surgeon, well, to share with anyone who'll listen! The natural progression would be clot gone, pain gone. Medicine would say that all my medications, treatments and surgeries did their job and got rid of the clot. God says His ways are not our ways! Hallelujah!
So I still have a clot but I choose to see what is unseen and to look with the eyes of my heart. So I have some more work to be done in my health but the One who started a work in me will complete it! I know this because the Bible says so!
I got another miracle in this journey and one that isn't just for me, but one to share. No one in the world can explain why my pain is gone but I can. Jesus, the only name my heart will sing! Merciful and Faithful is He!